Wow. I have not written one of these in a while. Over the Christmas break I should be able to catch up. I do not think I will be doing this next year. It is extremely hard for me to keep up with writing projects because I find I can't force myself to write. That is usually the predicament I find myself in whenever I sit down and try to write an entry for this. I decided to write today's entry because I feel that need to write.

Sometimes I can't help but think that life is just a test to see how long you can go without offing yourself. Really. I know that's a horribly pessimistic view of life, but I've been pretty down in the dumps lately. The weather's not helping. It's rainy, dark and just overall gloomy. I know there is so much beauty in this world, but some days it seems the ugly outweighs the beautiful.

Maybe I'm not looking hard enough or I choose not to see the beauty over the ugliness.

I'm just over the halfway point for this entry. I wanted this to be a project to get my creative juices flowing. It did at some point, but a lot of the time it was just frustrating. I do not get my thoughts down on paper in ways that I want a lot of the time.

A lot has changed since I last wrote a post. I think I'm more comfortable with who I am. I found out things about people. Said things made me re-think my friendships. I admitted things that made a friendship stronger; or at least I think it did.

I think I'm realizing a lot of people don't really belong in my life. Then there are the people that still continue to bug you even if they're out of your life. You see their picture and you just scoff. She can do whatever. She's just always bothered me.