University definitely changes things. As much as I love to change things up, there are those aspects of your life that you wish would stay the way they are forever. Life does not permit this to happen all the time. I envy the stories that tell of friends who have known each other for so long, saying that their relationship never changed, that they we always close. It's hard for me to have friendships like this. I don't have best friends. I've talked about this before. I have major trust issues. I can't just let out information to others like a lot of people seem to be able to do.

I'm eighteen and I feel like I haven't had a lot of close friends; one that know me inside out. I can count them on one hand and I'm even iffy about some of those ones.

I guess I am to blame for the lack of interaction with others. I have a very interpersonal personality. On all these personality tests I've scored INFP, which is one of the lower percentages of personality types. I'm super seclusive. Awkward in social settings. Enjoy my independence. Like my alone time profusely. The tortured poets, artists and indie kids usually fall in this category. Heh.

I was never a social butterfly. I was the kids that cried when they said goodbye to their mom before school began. It's funny how I like being alone, yet long for that someone who I can relate to on a certain level. Companionship is just part of human nature, so I shouldn't be surprised. I hope I find this someone soon. Real soon.