i am a hypocrit. i am a coward who loves a fight. i fear the rapids but long to have beat the currents. when something becomes difficult i am always tempted to give up and stick to the paths i know well.

we've been talking alot in the short periods of time that we've been available. i've been frank and honest - you apologized for all that you've put me through; it was alot but in a way i'm glad of it. troubled times teach us that we can make it.

i thought of you when i bought my new claddagh ring - love, friendship, loyalty - worn to show that someone has captured my heart.

• love: i think i believe you now more than ever
• friendship: you told me i am your best friend and confidant, the only one who stayed strong with you
• loyalty: you're not like the others. when you were away and the other boys were scoping out hotties you said you didn't feel like you needed to join in because you have one back home.

more than hope - almost all i'd pray.