all in my head.
This journal begins on Mar 09, 2008 with 1 word, and continues until Mar 08, 2009. During these 365 days julian will write a total of 66,795 words.
the colors of the couch beside me were blissfully floating in and out of focus, breathing. the couch, too, begun to breathe. the floor, the walls, and then the ceiling all started breathing in time. wrapped in a vortex of... More »
nicotine is my best friend. carbon monoxide is my lover. formaldehyde is my sister, hydrogen cyanide my brother. my name is benzene and i am an alcoholic. toxic emissions take the place of the blood that used to run through... More »
the color of the city tonight screams red, so i walked home with my eyes closed. i've done it so many times i've got it all memorized. i don't open my eyes the whole way, i always keep them closed,... More »
i felt like eating a fish, so i went to the beach and caught one. "you don't want to eat me," he screamed. "I'm toxic!" I gobbled him up before i lost the thought of my stomach being pumped in... More »
If you need to find me, just go out to your backdoor cemetary, dig me up. When i was a kid i fell through an old well in my backyard, 6 feet deep and i thought i was going to... More »
i am always in funerals. when you see them ghosts and vampires across the street, search the crowded nullity for my face. because when my head gets lost in itself, i pause for a moment and i realize that i... More »
oh hey, when you get to the bottom, let me know. i'll make sure i'm not there to toss you a rope. because then we will both know what it's like to kill yourself every night, only to wake up... More »